I planned to write diaries when I had time. Now I have, yet I don’t know where to start.
When a friend asked me:"You are not enjoying preparing the GMAT, are you? ", really wanted to answer:"Yes, I am. " Preparing the test is a task with a structural evaliation system and a specific goal, a goal that you know you can attain as long as you devote enough to it, a goal that the result of which, you know, will mostly, if not totally, be determined by your devotion. I used to think that I hate examinations, which occupy most of my time, yet now I feel that I like them, because examinations alarm me that time is limited, and confirm me that success is not hopeless.
I think I’m one born to chase success, which, although, may has a definition different from that of others. I need success to prove that my existance is valuable. However, the three years in university forces me to admit that there’s something I’m not good at. The three years even forces me to feel that frustration is the theme of my campus life, and success is only accompaniment. Nevertheless, the result of GMAT, the greatest success since I enter university, give me back some self-confidence. It provides me confidence that the truth is not that I lack the ability, but that I lack devotion. I spent to much time to worry, resulting in too little time to devote. The best method, at least for me, is to set a goal, find the way, and chase it, without interruption of worries. As long as a goal is set, find excuses to make you fully devote in it, excuses that convince you that all that you do is valuable.
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dear cat, this diary is very useful for me at this period. frankly speaking, rescently, i noticed that i have gradually lost confidence, lost my goal, lost the passion to fight for my last year in this university. i don’t know where i my way is after graduate, what’s worse, now i dare not to think about my future, everything seems so far away from me, everything seems so hard for me. successful is a word that haven’t come to me for a long time. i really don’t know what i can do….. i know i have many things need to do, but i just have such a strong feeling that i could not finish all of them. and i do not know where to begin, how to go through the failtures which will come to me undoubtedly.
Cat
These days I’m trying to find some information about my future. I found that I had not devote enough, even to find usuaful informatin. I spent too much time to worry, without noticing that the way had been provided by anonimous. We feel frustration not because that we encountered failures, but that we don’t know the way from failure to success. There must be a way out. The most terrible thing is not failure, but hopeless. We must find hope first.